Alcohol
Sex under the influence

Have you regretted decisions you made under the influence of alcohol? Joslin wants you to know what she learned from her mistake.

Joslin and her friends were about to graduate from high school. They planned an overnight celebration at a local hotel. "Fun" to them included using alcohol.

They began with drinks in the Jacuzzi. Joslin had her eye on Rick, and felt jealous of the girl he was with.

"After every drink, I got more frustrated, angry, and sad," Joslin says. "I decided I wasn't going to let him ruin my night. I thought the more I drank, the less this whole thing would bug me."

As the evening went on, kids "hooked up." Todd came on to Joslin. "I definitely did not find him attractive," she says. "I knew I could say no, but I thought getting together with him might help me get over Rick. That's how I rationalized the whole thing. It was ridiculous. But I was drunk and, honestly, at the time, it made sense to me."

Joslin and Todd had sex. But rather than feel better, Joslin felt worse. She knew she had made a mistake.

"I went into the bathroom and got into the shower," she says. "I was crying and crying. I felt so disgusting. I could hardly move. I looked in the mirror and asked, 'What did you just do?' "

Joslin wanted to leave. But because she had been drinking, she didn't want to drive. She didn't sleep all night long.

Eventually, Joslin realized that alcohol was the culprit in her misery. That drinking to erase pain was a mistake. "You definitely can't expect your normal behavior when you drink," she says. "Drinking makes you think different. Because I was drinking, I made a terrible decision."